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"Father, I want to die soon", Vasanth looked at the floor as he lacks courage to face the Father.
"That's why I asked you to relax for sometime. Come on my son. Stay relaxed for sometime. I'll be back in sometime. Don't go anywhere, I'll be back right away", Father intentionally moved from the place as he wants Vasanth to relax for sometime without any disturbance.
Minutes rolled..
Vasanth seemed to be relaxed after sometime.
"So how are you, my son?", Father asked Vasanth as he is nearing Vasanth and in return there is no response from Vasanth.
"Hmmm, What's wrong, son?", Father sat near Vasanth in the sofa "What made you think to die soon?".
"Father, please don't ask me anything. I couldn't explain things as I was hurt too much", Vasanth shows his height of frustration.
"But my son, we can solve problems only we know what actually the problem is. Please feel free to share your thoughts as I'm trying to help you", Father hold Vasanth's hand.
"Father.. Father...", Vasanth exploded with tears and laid on Father Victor's shoulder.
"It's ok my son. Relax.. Calm down.. Relax..", Father pat on Vasanth's back which made Vasanth feel better.
"Now tell me son. What's your problem?", Father showed a sign of love through his words.
"I'm a total loser in life, Father. I don't have good loving parents as the others have. They hate me as I was an added burden to them from my childhood. My friends, they always need me only at the time they are in some need. My love, despite I loved her a lot, left me for no reason as I do not have work and I couldn't look after myself. My surroundings, they always make fun of me as I'm useless. I sometimes feel to myself that I'm worth for nothing. I try to cry a lot to someone who can understand my pain but I couldn't find one trustworthy as I couldn't differentiate between the good and the bad. I fear a lot now a day about my life".
"Hmmm..", The Father sighed "It's ok. So this is the problem which took you to a decision of death, isn't it?", Father asked.
"Yesterday, I had a mail from the company where I was offered a job. They declined the offer which they made to me as their company is under recession and this is one of the steps they made to overcome it. I struggled for more then 2 to 3 years to get an offer. I travelled each and every corner of the city by walk to attend interviews. I did courses to make myself updated in my field. I thought this job would prove the world I'm not useless. I believed I can get back all that I have lost in my life, my parents, my friends, my love and everything. But....", Vasanth blushed with tears "I pleaded the company by call and also went to the HR officials but nothing helped me. I've lost everything in my life Father. Please request God to take my life soon...", he cried out loud.
"Come on my son, don't worry. Relax.. relax..", Father pat on Vasanth's back as he just lean on Father's shoulder.
Silence prevailed for several minutes before Vasanth stood up.
"Father I'm going to leave now", Vasanth started.
"Son, I need to tell you something before you make your next decision", Father interrupted Vasanth "Do you have a few minutes for my words?"
"Yes, Father", Vasanth nodded his head.
"The problem you have is nobody but you alone. You fear yourself by thinking about the future and your surroundings and nothing about you and your happiness. Fear makes things worse than ever. You keep on thinking about death which makes you not to concentrate in any other good deeds. Have you ever thought about the times you were happy before? If yes, then you might surely not thought about death at those times. Well may I ask you some questions?", Father waited for Vasanth's reply.
"Yes, Father"
"Do you like the girl Suji?"
"Yes, Father a cute little girl. Who would not like her?!"
"Will you accept if she is going to die in some days?"
"Father, why would you talk like this? She is a very small girl and she is very happy with her parents and please Father don't ask anything more"
"My son, to tell you the truth, Suji is affected with brain tumor and she is counting her days. That small child doesn't know this and even her parents do not know about this. I was the one who took her to doctor when she fainted once and doctor asked just to trust God as her condition is critical. Doctor and I decided not to tell her parents and we bluffed something to them", Father said in a lowered voice while Vasanth thought about the incident when Suji said him about the toffee which sours given by doctor uncle.
"Father, why did you do this? You should have said about this to Suji's parents." Vasanth mumbled "Oh God, why do you do this to a small girl."
"Look my son, as I said Fear is the biggest enemy for happiness. Now Suji's parents don't know about her condition and so they do not fear thinking about her. Even the little girl has no feelings in her other than happiness. She never thinks about her future or her surroundings as she is still a small girl and do not know about the world, the hatred feeling people have on each other, etc,. Her parents feel happy all the time looking at Suji. Do you want me to spoil their happiness? More over if they come to know that their daughter is going to die soon, they will never be happy again and even their behavior with Suji will change as a result of fear of death. Suji will be affected as well", Father explained as Vasanth sat down on floor crying.
"Why should God do this to that little girl Father? He should have chosen me instead", Vasanth cried louder.
"Son, each and every happening in this world has its own reason and you should understand death is not the way to bring an end to problems. Life is given by God and each individual have their own destiny to be reached after which God by himself calls us to him. Now you are crying for a small girl who you oddly know for weeks. I'm nobody to you and you shared your thoughts, your feelings to me. These are small things that you should observe in life. These little things bring you life within yourself. Eliminate fear within yourself. Live your life for yourself and live your present minute with all the happiness as we don't own the next minute", Father looked into the eyes of Vasanth.
Father's words gave some sort of relief and fresh thoughts within Vasanth. Vasanth is now out of the sad feeling about his life and now he is disturbed with Suji's condition. He sat down on the floor for almost hour thinking about the various happenings in his life from childhood. He thought about the people he met, the lessons he learnt from them. Some people stayed in his heart and some were just passing clouds. He is really confused about the life he had with happiness which turns into dark and the way he thought that his life turned dark which was actually a good one compared to others.
"Father, I'm sorry for what I did. I'm leaving now. Bless me", Vasanth bowed down before the Father.
"May God forgive your sins and fulfill with joy", Father smiled and pat on Vasanth’s arms, "My son, have a good future".
Vasanth had no words to say in that condition and steps forward towards the door.
"Son, please wait a minute", Father started "Not all fingers in a hand are same. Likewise not all the parents are lovable as Suji's or others you know. There are different situations for each individual. People have different situations like fun, enjoyment, commitment, tragedy, worse time, etc., and you don't know in what category the others come in. More over you don't know the love and trust they have on each other. It is not mandatory they show it to you too. Love is everywhere. People don't realize it. Love people for their originality and not for their outside behaviors. It’s always better to be loyal to who trust you rather acting all over and gaining a fake good image. You will gain many people if you show love and shower smiles on them with a pure soul. Simply to say, Love people for their good side and least bother about their mistakes in life. They are the sole responsible for their life and it’s not the others business to deal with. Problem solved.. Understand life. It’s easy.", a big sign of love and confidence showered from the Father.
Vasanth in reply smiled at the Father and left the church.
Vasanth was not able to come out of the fact that a small kid is affected with a deadly disease. He was thinking of that the whole night and also about the words from the Father “every happening in this world has its own reason” and consoled himself. It was hard for him to come out of it for a few days but the faith given by the Father made him overcome his negative thoughts. He started practicing to see things in a positive approach whatever it is. His heart filled with happiness in due course. He was able to handle things with smile. His hard work continued but with a positive energy.
Weeks rolled..
"Father, how are you?", Vasanth in a navy blue suit and with a big smile in his face for the first ever time in his life.
"Welcome my son. It gives me pleasure to see you with such a happy smile. Hope everything is fine with you now", Father called Vasanth inside the church.
"I'm a new man now and I want to thank you for everything you have shown me to know what life is! I'm now working in a software company and also I became a member of a charity trust who helps people to overcome their mental weakness. I'm really happy now Father. I can see love from my parents, friends and everyone around me. You have changed my attitude. It seems the whole world is in love with me!", Vasanth's face looked very bright.
"Well, my son. Glad to hear you speak with cheers. Thank God and not me. I'm just his ambassador to let people understand their life", Father smiled.
"Thank you once again Father. Bless me. It's time to go play with Suji"
"God bless you my son. Always remember everything happens for a reason. Live you life, never regret for its consequences. Enjoy, love and serve people till God calls you to heaven. Have a blessed day", Father blessed Vasanth.
Vasanth left the church to see Suji and play with her. He is very happy and after all he is now living his life.
I shared the link to this poignant story - which strikes me as personal quite some - because I felt someone should be touched. Perhaps, they w'd accept some of the stories' - and, perhaps, YOUR conclusions. Have I stated the ones I'm in dispute with?
ReplyDeleteWe find happiness everywhere, here a little, there a little. Yet, we must truly be sad. So, we must be deliberately happy to bear the sadness that is of necessity some sort of comeuppance. Hmm, deep.
Deep. But, thanks for Suji. I'll remember Suji.
Hi Kabolobari,
ReplyDelete'Poignant story' - Thanks for the word that it made someone feel poignant.
And there are many Sujis' in life of every people. Some find it and some don't. I feel pity for those who don't find theirs.
Thanks again for taking time to read my story and for your comments :-)
Our dilemma is that we hate change and love it at the same time; what we really want is for things to remain the same but get better.
ReplyDeleteDeepak people always look for change but in the positive manner. If something goes wrong or in other words if the change is in the opposite of what they think, there arises the problem in them. They do not understand whether the change is for their good or bad and even we can't judge those changes as the next minute (future) is not in our hands.
ReplyDeleteSo as said, take things always in positive side. Be an optimist. Believe in every thing happens for a reason and let the reason be for best. :-)